Hidden Treasures

CHAPTER 1: Her and The Beast

Leaving home to school her heart ached drastically, her face was pale and puffed up, tears dropped instantly as she sat in the front seat of her cab. Her cab driver gazed and looked away and tears continued dropping as she availed herself to wipe them with her bare hands. Along the way she was silence until they picked up her classmate; friend.

Along the way to school, everyone was minding their own business, since she was on the front seat, she perpetuated letting tears roll while she blinked and ensuring no one noticed.

Getting off, her friend observed her tears. So, she rushed hastily and hugged her tightly, while still holding her. She stared at her and enquired on what was eating her and hugged her tight some more.

Time for classes was due but her friend saw no need 14 | P a g e

for it. Her friend rushed to class and informed the lecturer that both her and her friend weren’t able to attend.

Thus, they both stayed outside while comforting her.

Her friend endeavored calling her sister to unearth information regarding the matter.

Her sister was home and unaware of the matter. Her sister made a call too to find out from her best friend and he appeared uninformed additionally. It felt absurd for everyone. She knew something was off, nonetheless, not precisely.

This is so familiar for most people if not all. It is a result of keeping baggage’s and moving on with undealt traumas. Growing up for her felt like adulthood while she was still a child. she kept a protective wall for herself and became vigorous and perfect for others. She profoundly relished others while she had no time for herself. She didn’t have time to connect with her emotions since crying wasn’t her subject. She had to be vigorous for all.

She was utilized as an example to others, she was taken to care for others while she needed to be cared for hence, she absorbed a life infeasible of mistakes. Little things became tremendous things for her.

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While still at school, she received a call from her best friend enquiring if she was able to meet up, she acceded and went to meet him. She was still tearing, upon arriving to her bestie.

The best friend did the exact same as her friend, hugged her and wiped away her tears. They sat and discussed and she was still unable to open up since she didn’t know what the problem was for her and she still had trusting issues with most, especially the male person.

Her best friend encouraged and emboldened her. He offered food and ascertained she aet afore going back to school and she did just that with more efforts since she had no appetite. She was escorted to get cab while the best friend went back to work. She got to school and was revising on her upcoming mental health test on depression.

She knocked off, went home and things commenced worsening inside of her. She was becoming emotional out of nothing and taking things personal.

Her sister verbalized with her to rule out the difficulty yet, to no prevail. They both couldn’t fathom. Some days were better and others were worse.

Her best friend perpetually checked her up. Months passed by and the final exam was approaching. She felt even more anxious since she had outstanding 16 | P a g e

fees and his father didn’t seem to understand the need to settle the outstanding fees since the school fees was escalating un predictably.

There were few misunderstandings and her father couldn’t avail. She had endeavored NSFA on several occasions though she wasn’t culled and her parents struggled with the fees. She prayed, cried to God and fasted at times to get a break through.

She went to get her timetables and conclusively she received it astonishingly. One of the school rules that could qualify an individual for exams was settling the outstanding, hence she rejoiced in astonishment since she still had pending fees.

She smiled in her heart, rushed to the toilet after and thank God for the miracle. All she feared was ‘not sitting for the exam’. She perpetuated studying and exhibiting up for exams until the last day.

After exams, while in wait for graduation. Earlier that morning, she dazzled the streets jogging as customary headed for her working out spot at the Fire station to meet up with her working out buddy.

Once she was done, she jogged back home, upon getting at home was miscalls from her aunt and her uncle. ‘It was something earnest she thought’ since 17 | P a g e

it was early. Without hesitation, she called back her aunt instead.

 

Upon asking about there were abouts her aunt retorted ‘’no we are not fine’’. She further asked what the matter was and all she perceived was ‘‘your brother is no more.’. Since her aunt mentioned his brother’s denomination, she retorted out of confusion which one? And she hugged up.

She screamed louder and cried until her neighbor reached out. Once her neighbor left, she commenced singing all hymn musical compositions she could recall their melodies. She prayed, cried than sing again. She commenced receiving several calls enquiring if it was true what transpired precisely? She texted her best friend about the lamentable news and apprised that her phone will be off. Bestie responded that they will make a turn after with other church youths. She apprised her heavenly sent twin sister additionally.

She switched off her phone later, her sister (cousin) was at work at the moment. She came back home with red ocular perceivers and still crying, she hugged her tight and offered condolences to her but she was done with crying virtually. She informed her 18 | P a g e

sister that they were travelling home that same day and they commenced preparing. Her twin sister arrived too and they commenced singing and praying for vigor, comfort and the journey.

Her bestie arrived too with other individuals, they all shared emboldening words and offered financial support. The neighbors were authentically more proximate individuals, they felt physically contacted, and offered financial support and good counsel. The youth on the contrary felt she needed to wait the next day but her mother was her concern at the moment.

She felt, that seeing her would offer natural support to her mother since that’s all she had been to her.

She and her sister reached there the next day, they both were vigorous and valiant. She sang with her cousin and her sister and her cousin shared words of comfort to the bereaved.

They both felt potent. The moment her mother saw her, she cried even louder and shouted ‘’leave my kids so we weep my son’’. She hugged her mama and rushed in the storeroom. She couldn’t afford to cry, ‘she needed to be vigorous for others’, especially her mama. Her cousin followed her, she reassured her that she was well and that she was coming later, 19 | P a g e

thus she left her. She perpetuated praying; asking God to make her vigorous for her mom and that she shouldn’t weep.

Most of the times she needed to be solitary but no one could sanction her, especially her cousin. People perpetuated texting but she wasn’t having energy for that, she was unresponsive. She needed space and no one appeared to fathom. She was keeping herself diligent, inscribing her utterances.

The burial day came and she read her words. All seemed in control at the moment and she couldn’t cry. The next day once her cousin and sister had left for work, she noticed how traditional practices were held, as people were offered his brothers apparel and things from his bags. Some felt envious and irate since they were not given.

She lied on a mattress while examining that and she felt devastated. She stood up and left for her room.

The next day she needed to finalize her research in order to submit. She went to her dad’s bar to charge her laptop and work on it there. She didn’t want to perceive anyone. Once someone was approaching on the same road, she would switch roads and maintain no contact.

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She would lock herself in and do her work and even when anyone called, she would ignore. She finalized her work and submitted while stayed with her parents. They would do division night time together, it was still disturbing for all but still seemed well for her. when it was time for her to return back, she travelled in the night. In attempt to sleep, all she could discern was her brother and it affrighted her that it became bothering.

Getting to the city, while alone in the house since her sister; cousin was doing night shift, she couldn’t slumber. She was visually perceiving him everywhere; she was feeling guilty and felt she could had done something etc. She had so much to ask.

She was mostly crying when alone.

One day she had to submit her mental health book at Psychiatry Hospital. She bathed and was yare to go, in the cab she commenced tearing again. This time she planned to verbalize with her lecturer.

When she got there, she was asked to become a patient for the students she found at the hospital.

She concurred and thus they did their relaxation exercises on her. She felt relived and she didn’t see the need to ask for help any longer.

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Graduation was just in the corner; she wasn’t energized about it anymore. She didn’t want a celebration than but few days to it, she felt the need but it wasn’t possible anymore since they just buried her brother.

Her parents both came since it was her and her sister graduation. They both appeared exhilarated for their kids. She wasn’t jubilant. Her mind was in different places seeking for answers. She was growing outwardly yet, dying inwardly.

She was growing closer to her best friend that it commenced consuming her up additionally. She didn’t appear able to control her thoughts conceptions and mind though she felt sick and absurd.

She authentically had been praying about a year and half to gain back herself but that didn’t seem to assist. She decided to ask for advice from a friend on how to deal with her feelings and thoughts and she got exhorted though the battle seemed very huge than just words of advices. She inscribed a text to her best friend and let him kens of her current struggles which involved him.

The best friend was so concerned that he wanted details so, he could help but she was unsure and 22 | P a g e

didn’t trust opening up fully, she felt it wasn’t right to be frank with him thus she emerged concealed.

She started fighting back and blocking the cerebrations of wanting love and the more she fought the more the pain, the brokenness and the more she felt vanquished. She perpetuated verbalizing with her best friend and endeavoring to ask him questions to make him realize they needed to stop communicating but she just couldn’t decide that for herself.

She realized her struggles but still ambulated in it due to her inability to resist him. She felt annexed.

She felt as if cutting the connections was cutting a component of her away. So, she continued responding to his calls and texts. While this was transpiring, conspiracy broke out at church in the youth.

She was inculpated of several things in the group and being queried. She was asked to apologize to the entire group or she lose her position. Nothing made sense at the moment. She was brought to trial and majority made it kenned to her that it wasn’t possible that incriminations could appear from 7

people yet no veracity in it. She was becoming 23 | P a g e

exasperated and astray, she relucted to apologize for things she didn’t do.

She felt as if that was lying but she later still apologized. Upon apologizing, she still was taken out of her position. She felt numb, paralyzed and lost.

She accommodated for three years in this youth as a bible study coordinator, then re-elected for an advisory position. With the exhorting position, she just accommodated for 8 months then all that transpired. She switched attending accommodations though still amassed for youths’ events and bible study. She wanted out of everything though her heart still had little vigor.

The pandemic arrived and there was her moment of facing the authentic giant within. It was time to experiences and face her baggage’s. She was deteriorating gradually. She begun inscribing often in order to relinquish thus she birthed a blog and an album. She made a launch and invited his best friend to emerge, she conversated further on email and they reconciled.

One day after a week from the launch they both seated to discuss and this included his best friend and the final conclusion was they both needed to stop communicating. In as much as she was losing 24 | P a g e

herself, she wasn’t inclined to lose the bond. His friend decided to never text her but she was stubborn of heart that she still texted him. She became physically ill until hospital admission and her thoughts were still racing. She read extravagantly while still in the hospital.

The more she read, the more she felt guilty and the more she texted his friend apologizing. She was discharged than re admitted for operation sakes. She was moved to a different medico: surgeon and miracles transpired though she was still ill. The Dr.

appeared to her to obtain history and thereafter he exclaimed that she needed a psychologist that this was stress manifesting in the physical realm. All that appeared odd to her.

According to the Dr.

She was admittedly diagnosed with Hep B and her enzymes levels were very high being proven by blood tests. Further investigations were carried out while hospitalized, nevertheless she was transferred to that surgeon Dr. who ruled out that it was IBS.

The comical thing was that she was misdiagnosed and admitted hence to be opportunely diagnosed and availed.

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Once she was discharged, she stayed home on sick leave and started with her sessions. She was very committed. Despite all these efforts, her heart was still sick, she desired his friend and she missed him.

She was illusional, paranoid and day dreaming. She would witness someone endeavoring to attack her though no one was genuinely there,

she would be frightened when someone suddenly emerge. She would go to work though still fantasizing. She appeared well to all since she was still incipient. Withal, she was a blissful person so, it was hard to notice. Her manager called her to enquire since she appeared energetic according to her but she couldn’t canvass that in her work.

She culminated her sessions for about two month and they were helpful. However, they did not take her void, war or whatever it was. She still had to cry and pray without ceasing. One day she decided to take dry fasting and she still felt challenged. She prayed only for the mind to be renewed. The next day she felt emotional again, she felt un-loved, unappreciated and un unworthy.

She felt helpless and vanquished. She called one of her cousins and asked that she help prayed with her, she cried aloud and exclaimed; ‘’God I am tired, I have tried and I am done. This is enough. When will 26 | P a g e

you come to surmount? The thought conceptions are over powering.’’ Her sister called her and she sounded unwell and she didn’t want to verbalize.

Her sister texted and they chatted. She read the bible and she got a revelation to do Daniels fasting for ten days. She wasn’t sure if she would manage but she commenced anyway. While still chatting with her sister, the final text from her sister bothered her that she was tenacious to go in 10 days prayer and she commenced right away and she was joined by a team of people in a distance land. The next day, a friend woke her up in the morning to pray, once she culminated another one came through and another one again at night and that’s how it was flowing.

Enough was enough. Day one and two passed and she prayed to stay from temptations and she managed.

Day three, Satan appeared to her in a human form, she was at work diligent attending to her client, when one of her colleges appeared to her offering her a biscuit, she responded that she was fine but this person took a chair and sat in front of her orally consuming the biscuit gradually and making her feel lamentable for not taking it.

She commenced praying inside until she exclaimed loud ‘Satan go away’ than the person smiled and 27 | P a g e

ambulated away dancing. This same person kenned that, she infrequently takes snacks, nonetheless, now while she fasted, she did come to her and did that.

Once she was done with her client, she rushed to the toilet and prayed and perpetuated her work until knocking off time. In that moment when she was engaged in this exercise, she commenced getting more revelations of scriptures to avail her fight.

She commenced feeling more joyous, tranquil and more content. She was revealed to her mistakes and her sins and she confessed and reached out to all for forgiveness’s sake. She withal, requested God to submit her confessions to his best friend since they couldn’t text yet.

On day five, she read Matthew 7:7-12 and she listened to a sermon too. Later she understood that she felt betrayed, humiliated, ignored etc. Yet she was being refined for God’s glory, she saw that she was being prepared for something bigger to come.

She learned that just as Joseph this people were utilized by Satan to hurt her yet sanctioned by God to train her and make her vigorous. She additionally realized that her bestie loved her so dearly, that he 28 | P a g e

gave up their friendship in order for her to regain her lost self.

She now fathomed that only a caring person would have done that, protecting her soul, heart and body by ambulating away from her since she was at war with him in her mind. She learned that most of her hurts were due to her prospects and trusting faculty of humans rather than God’s potency.

God was endeavoring to redirect her focus from humans to him. Her progress was with incipient learning and skills and she was thrilled. She couldn’t wait for the final deliverance and the transformation of her mind and heart. She looked forward. Day 5

was marginally challenging; she had no energy to study the word, she felt disconnected from God though she still pushed through.

Days went by and the end of the fast approached.

She conclusively concurred and looked forward many encounters to avail with vigor, faith and comfort. Her body appeared wasted but she didn’t care much about it. Her deepest desire was complete healing. She felt she had lost her sense to feel and she was becoming a doormat. In this moment she culled stillness, tears and more prayers and less defense.

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She foresaw God enabling her to bear the pain while working on her. Her sister felt that she was fasting a lot and starving herself and she needed adequate feeding. However, she in that moment, was desperate for God to intercede.

Also, she was revolted and absolutely conscious of every aliment she took in and that made it worse for her. The fast didn’t bring absolute answers instantly but she felt compelled to do another 10 days repeat which was broken afore upon being engaged in a life transmuting conversation with her sister and this help her realized how sick she genuinely was and how she needed to break from it due to many medications she consumed at that moment.

 

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